baby fever.
so.. i just found out that someone is having a baby!! i am so excited for her! we have been talking about this for some time. being newlyweds, people are always asking “so when are you going to have a baby?” as much as i keep saying “no” there’s always that part of me that wants one cuz it’d be cute to dress them and such. the crying and the changing of the diapers…..not so much. for years i have been thinking of names i would want my child to have. i have a list that gets revised every few months if i think of another name that i like. i have some baby websites bookmarked for when that time comes and i want cute items for my baby and even quite a few baby books. for goodness sake, i even have baby magazines coming monthly in the mail! lol….DISCLAIMER: i’m actually not that crazy… i got bored one day and wanted free magazine subscriptions and the baby magazine was being offered free so what the heck, it might be useful someday. =P
anyway…as much as i have this baby fever, on the other hand, i am TERRIFIED! the image of a woman giving birth is horrifying! i hope that when i do become pregnant i will be able to have a cesection. i would much rather have a scar than a torn — *ahem* — you know what. another issue for me is that i am not ready to have a baby. i want to cherish my first couple of married years with jake and travel the world without having to worry about a babysitter. i want to explore the world, have new experiences and adventures without worrying. having the two dogs alone is pretty tough for us. we cant stay out too long without worrying if the dogs have peed/pooped in their beds, or making sure we’re home in time to feed them and walk them. we’re just not ready.
at the same time, i’m torn. i want my baby to be able to grow up with the babies in our family. little lana is already about to turn one years old in a few months. this mystery woman who just found out she’s pregnant will be giving birth around september of this year. i love how i have a close relationship with my cousins. i want my child to have that with her cousins as well. *sigh*… what to do, what to do…..
the right time will come. God will bless us a child when he knows it’s right for jake & i. i’m hoping we have a few years ahead of us to enjoy each others’ company but at the same time i want to start a little family. hhaaha. who knows… the time will come.
yea, the time will come… there was one time that it did come last year… i believe it was april 1st… do you remember that? maybe i should teach you a lesson this year and make what you told me last april a reality for this april… >:)
hi sweety. i’m at work taking a short break. this comment isn’t really to this post. but no where to really post to say hi. You should create a “page” and title it “wall” so that people can just drop by and say hi to you and leave you messages. ya dig?!
gonna go back to work. love you!
uh oh.. i see another edit.
PMF….
I’ve already been blessed with 2 beautiful children yet that doesn’t stop the baby fever for me either….I understand all your fears, but any pain you go through to bring a child into this world is a very small price to pay believe me….your life will be forever changed and you won’t be able to imagine life without your child ( children) in your life. But it will happen when it’s meant to be
awww, WF, you visited my site! thanks for showing some love. =) so you still have baby fever huh? hhhah.. have you guys been talking more about it? what’s the status of that situation?
Hey PMF,
I am almost done with school, so probably talk about it more seriously when I have that behind me. I am hoping a lot of things change in the next year but we will see….
Yeah we still talk about having a baby…BUT jb lost his job 2 weeks ago, so now that is the focus…him finding a job
omg, he did? i’m sorry to hear that. i hope he finds one soon. did his salon close down? is he gonna stay in the hair industry? when do you finish school? yah, i hope this year will be good..for everyone. good luck with everything!